Malang, 02 Okt. 19
I find you in every corner.
I really want to say that. But you know the sun shines so brightly and it’s
really hot here. I don’t think it resembles you. I think Global Warming has
shown its effect on you. Don’t give me that eye. I know you quite well. When I
was a kid I was always looking forward to see you on every school holiday. But
yeah I still hate the motion sickness I get in almost every journey to come to
you. I’m totally annoyed with the traffic. Is crossing the streets always this
life-threatening? Can I walk on the sidewalk safely?
Please don’t get mad buddy.
You know very well how much I love you. Your mild air always comforts me. No
matter how cold it is, surprisingly it’s something I like from you. I can’t get
over your bakso. Everyone knows it’s heavenly tasty. Why would I do without
your bookstores and city library? I’m forever grateful for new ideas,
knowledge, wisdom, and information you’ve provided. Flowers and trees seem to
love you as well. They grow beautifully and make everything look better. I can
see plenty of young and old couples in love sit under the shade and feel the
breeze. You are such a lucky one. A lot of nice people love you and can’t take
their eyes off you. You always feel like home for me. You will always be.
Thank God for giving me a
chance to be here in Malang. Thank you Malang for growing up with me. Thank you
for letting me meeting a lot of new family and friends. Thank you for the
amazing 9 years. Thank you for the meaningful lessons. I am who I am because of
you. People always say I never change. But I know deep in my heart I’ve changed
a lot. And it’s all because of you too.
It might sound mean but I’m
very happy leaving you now. I used to be scared with the great unknown. I’m
afraid of the unpredictable future. I didn’t understand a lot of things about
life even myself. I hesitated to leave you because you give me such comfort.
But this time I’m ready. I think it’s time to open a new book with new
adventures and lessons. Well, I’m not that adventurous but I love ideas and
wisdom. So yeah I want to know more about new perspectives that I’m going to
learn in a place called The Island of Gods. I think I’ve learned enough from
you and sorry to say I can’t find anything that fascinates me anymore. There
are also people I love so much waiting for me there. I think I’ve left them for
too long. I want to be by their side while I’m still breathing.
Oh I got this quote from Kafka on The Shore by Haruki Murakami. Human being doesn’t choose his fate. Fate
chooses human instead. I can’t say I agree with that but I got the point.
My decision of leaving you came to me around a year ago. You may find it weird
but there were a lot of signs that tell me to go. Some people say it as the call. Everything that happened
lately led me to the same conclusion. I think the universe tried telling me
something. I couldn’t stop thinking about it and my heart felt so heavy. Then I
answered that call. As a result everything feels better now. Please do
understand this. It has never crossed my mind to leave you for any bad reasons.
Someone ever said it to me it’s not a good bye but a see you later.
I know I’m leaving you for good but it doesn’t mean I won’t see you again. You
are my 2nd home so I’m sure I’ll come back to visit you again one day in the
future. I hope you stay as a lovely home for everyone who loves you. Please be
kinder to people who like to walk a lot like me. I don’t want to lose my life
just because of crossing your crowded streets. Anyway, all the best for you
Malang. I love you so much. See you next time...
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