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your mind is your life


Malang, 12 Okt. 18

In the past, I had no idea that October 10 is such an important day. Literally, I just knew it a few days ago. Do you guys know why October 10 is a special day? It’s actually The World Mental Health Day.

Mental health topic has become so viral these days especially for millenials. for me, this particular topic does matter in my whole life. I’ve written a number of blog posts related to it. I’ve shared some stories how hard it is to keep my mind okay. Though I have quite a lot of writing about it, I don’t think this issue will never die to talk about. It will always linger in my life. It won’t be gone.

For me personally, the hardest part of living is facing the world. There are so many things about this world and everything it has that always make me insecure and restless. Negative thoughts never stop occupying most spaces in mind for example I always feel I’m not good enough. I don’t know what to do with my whole life. Failure turns me down. The fact that I couldn’t fit in the society makes me feel alienated. It really is hard to be understood by people around me. People start taking me for granted. I always hold back my own feeling and intuition when it comes to conflict with other people. I’m overthinking. Overfeeling. I hate living with expectations put on me. I’m stuck in a lot of trouble for a long time because I’m too strict to myself with the high standards set by me.

Those crazy bad things come over and over again. I’ve had it before. But it doesn’t guarantee  it won’t come back. I already know that as an infj, those overthinking thoughts will keep an eye on me. But I’m beat! It’s so annoying to have limitations on my whole life and future because of bad thoughts. My mental health is obviously disturbed. I’m aware that if this thing keeps up I won’t survive. I won’t live the life I’ve always wanted. I don’t want to make my parents sad because her daughter is frustrated. I don’t want to waste the life Allah SWT granted to me by dwelling in the darkest space within my mind. In short, I don’t want to be mentally ill.

This awareness brought me to get closer to the Divine One. I know that making peace with my inner self with the help from Allah SWT will bring a good result. I try to remember Him as much as possible and be grateful for everything I’ve got. When things get pretty tough, I calm myself down. I convince myself that I’ll be through it and I’m gonna be fine. It doesn’t always help me over it completely. There are times when my tears speak louder. But it does make things get easier. As my tears flow and I begin to be honest to myself, I feel way better. I accept all my flaws and I’m trying on my own way to be a better version of me.

Writing has always been my prior therapy to keep my mind sane. Writing on this blog is so much helpful to make me feel okay. I’m writing for myself and I share it to public so my friends can learn from it /hopefully/. Everything I put here is something that is hard for me to express verbally. So, if you feel like you have a problem but you can’t talk about it maybe writing can be an option for you to release your burden. If you don’t want people to read it, you can just write it down on a piece of paper or your notebook. Pour all of your trouble out of your mind and be free. Trust me, it works so well.

I just want to share that Mental Health awareness is so much a big thing and we can’t neglect it. We have to build a mindset that our mental is as important as our body. Whether our mind is healthy or not it depends on us. Maybe at the time when you read this you haven’t thought about it that much. But it’s true. Your mental is also your life. You have to treasure it at most. Surround yourself with good people and positive vibes. If you are a religion practitioner, get closer to your Creator. Be aware that your significant people are also prone to mental disorders. So please be supportive and helpful for them. Happy world mental health day... 



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