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Malang, 24 Agustus 2018 Days are long yet years are short. Lots of things have happened. Happiness and sadness still linger. What is wished doesn’t always come true. What is expected turns to be blue. Tears are often coming down unexpectedly. Laughter bursts as love and joy keep a company. Everyone wishes to be happy. Yet, happiness is not a destiny. It’s a choice we have to make. It’s something we need to work at. Hello God! Thanks for the amazing 26 years. Thanks for the ups and downs to let me grow beautifully and to let me know myself better. Thanks for the unexpected journey so I know how far I can go. Thanks for every breath, love, and tear. Thanks for the company. Keep holding and loving me as always. Keep me alive for the upcoming surprises. Amin... Thank God It's Friday!

Malang, 16 Agustus 2018 God always gives us what we need. Not what we want. That’s what I always believe. But sometimes, the are some moments when I feel so miserable and that belief is pushed back then gone somewhere far away. I lose my faith. I fall again. For those who have read my previous post, you already know that I’m in my Quarter Life Crisis. I’m questioning myself about my life, my happiness, and my future eventhough it’s obvious that I live a good life and nothing really goes wrong. Yet, I feel like my world is upside down. Especially when something I’ve been longing for never comes. I’m a type of person who needs to plan everything I’m going to do. I can’t really do things spontaneously. More importantly, when it comes to my personal life, I require a well-planned plan. I know sometimes things aren’t always going as we’ve planned. Yet, for me it’s still essential. Living a life without plans means committing a suicide. Back then, I planned to pursue my goal. G...

Malang, 04 Agustus 2018 Image is taken from https://www.popsugar.com/tech/Quarter-Life-Crisis-Instagram-38901437 In a few weeks, I’ll be 26. How’s my life so far? In 2 words I would say, “upside down”. Things are going quite differently from my expectations. I begin asking myself thousands questions about my life. Being worried about my future. Feeling anxious about my surroundings and job. A bit uncomfortable about my social life. Totally hate those expectations put on me. My whole life feels like everything just doesn’t feel right eventhough I live a good life. What’s happening to me? Before I reached 25, my life was full of dreams and joys of youth. I cherished every moment I spent for studying at college and learned new things about my job as an English teacher. I could buy a lot of books and stuff with my own income. I looked forward to meet my friends at the cafe and amusement parks. I planned to pursue my career and Master. I felt like I could live this lovely ...